This week I want to talk about the noise in your head. I used to have a lot of noise in my head; a combination of worry, over analysing, and anxiety would make up 95% of my daily thoughts.
My mind was working around the clock.
It was tiring.
I’d think, if only I could find the off switch, I’d get some respite.
After years of having a busy mind, I resigned myself that it was just the way I was. I couldn’t change. I’d always feel exhausted by the activity going on constantly in my mind.
Then one day I discovered the idea that I wasn’t really in control, so why was I worrying so much? Despite all my thinking, things would happen the way they were supposed to anyway. Suddenly I became aware of the thinking. I started to assess which thoughts were useful, and which ones were just noise. Over 90% was just noise. I noticed that if I didn’t pay attention to the noise it would pass, it was only when I paid attention that the noise would become deafening and I would start to feel stressed by it.
The key was to just allow the thoughts to pass through. Like visitors to your home. Or a running commentary. There’s no need to focus on any particular thought, nearly all of them are meaningless and don’t require our attention. The one’s that do will revisit.
One by one the old worries, anxieties, and areas of over analysing faded, one by one. There was finally space for calm. There were times when my mind would be still. Quiet. I liked it. I felt like I could breathe. Meditation helped when the busy mind creeped back in again. I also relied on some practical ways to reduce worry.
A busy mind is just habit, you can retrain yourself and slow your mind to a pace you are more comfortable with.
Do you have a busy mind? Have you found ways to find ‘peace of mind’?